FREE VERSE: IF ONLY I KNEW

Ever since I was born, I was so unsure about what course I like the most

My mind says, “You’re good for a lawyer.” but my heart says, “Architect suits you better.”

Am I really destined to be a lawyer as my family and mind says?

Perhaps, to be called as Architect Grace sounds better.

What now? Will I ever choose my mind over my heart?

I am really confused! I don’t know what to do,

I was given two choices to tackle about: a lot of risk to take

If only I knew which was which, then probably I’ve known what to make.

If only I knew what to chose then probably I will never be so confused

If only I knew what really suits me most, I wouldn’t feel like i’m in a deadlock post

If only I knew taking course was hard as this might as well transform myself into a chocolate kiss

If only I knew myself better then

maybe it’ll never be harder

If only I knew what right track to have maybe I won’t have this blab

If only I can be two persons at the same time

If only I can be both attorney and architect in the same line

Maybe...

I will never be so frustrated and suffocated like this.

                                                                                                                                           -Grace-